Placed on 5150 January, 2020

My name is Victor and in the month of January, 2020 I had completely lost my mind being confused with a lot and released my anger that I kept bottled up for so long. Prior to all of this I was going through a lot with my personal life and with my disability known as SMA Type Two, losing the feeling in my right hand because I fell asleep pinching a nerve while I had got my 9th Spinraza injection leaving me with no feeling, losing my grip, and even left me not being able to feed myself for several weeks. I have always been one that kept to himself and I was dealing with so much in my household I couldn’t take it anymore and exploded with anger. I made a YouTube video talking about it. Long story short I kept asking myself “why” why is this happening to me, why is this going on, why.. why.. why. I had lost my faith, strength, and respect to everyone around me. I felt like I lost everything I have gained over the years. I yelled and hurt those who loved me with words and pretty much gave up on life ever getting better having no optimism. I was placed on 5150 three times in January, 2020 and was almost sent out of state to a psychiatric facility. If you’re depressed, built up with anger, and or is just going through a tough time right now. I am here to tell you that “THIS IS NOT YOUR FINAL DESTINATION” I promise. Stay strong. Keep trying. NEVER GIVE UP. Nothing can last forever.. not even storms. 

Looking back I was very fortunate to have the support system that I have and for having the mom that I do because I know she went through h*ll to keep me close by. I want to say that I don't know what it is you're going through, things that you keep to yourself, your story etc. But I can say that whatever it is you're going through you have to keep yourself together because releasing my frustration took me down a road I don't ever want you to experience. Nothing is more scarier than losing your rights and having no say in anything. 

YouTube video link of me talking about this: https://youtube/OBOg1z8BdN8 

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